in every aspect, whether it comes to feelings about "that" to going on an audtion. I have anxiety about it. Why? Because I have a HUGE fear of rejection.
It all roots from my be still seeing myself as the way I was 10 years. You'd think that almost a decade and over 265 lbs later this would not be the case, well IT'S NOT, IT'S A BITCH. (Mikie that was for you).
Long story short most of you know what I'm talking about when I say "that", if you don't ask and if want to tell you I will. What has manifested this fear of rejection is the audition I went on yesterday. Well I didn't get cast and I am more upset about it than I should be. I didn't even get a callback. So, what was me sticking my foot back in the pool of auditioning has turned into me pulling that foot out and running away again. Will I get over it? And go back do it again? Only time will tell.
This pretty much sums up my feelings about it all.....
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