It's all about facing your fears. I refuse to be held back and not doing things that I was once made fun of because I was "fat. With the 10 year anniversary of having the gastric bypass rapidly approaching and being 14 pounds away from the goal weight I sat when I had it. I've gotten this "refreshed" view on obtaining that goal.
5 weeks ago I started doing the Couch to 5K program. I've always hated running. That hatred stems from being "that fat kid in gym class" being ridiculed (or to use a more current term Bullied) because I was slow and couldn't keep up with everyone else. I've always had this fear about "working out" in public because of these deep rooted fears from my childhood and then into my college years.
Well, yesterday after some prodding from 2 really good friends I joined a gym! This is huge y'all. I went today for the first time to run on the treadmill with one of those friends. The good news is, I didn't fall of the treadmill (almost but caught myself). The other good news is NO ONE MADE FUN OF ME!
So, with that I will start facing more of my fears. What will be next? My fear of commitment and abandonment? I dunno. Stay tuned. More will be revealed.
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